"Helix in Profile" by Nicholas h Politan

I want
            want
to feed 
            my feed
the want
            I want
others
            to see
in me
            and not me
ideally
            not in me
to be seen
            as me
I need
            a screen
to screen
            reams
of 
            iniquity
to clean
            me
suds
            me clean
what’s 
            me
keyed
            on a scene
where
            it all stops
the lie
            I want
to want
            a want
free
            of me
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Nicholas h Politan works as a wine merchant and lives in Brooklyn. What on Earth has he become?